I was watching The Bachelorette last night and they were talking about their truths and as I sit here today reflecting on how my day went yesterday I’ve decided to voice my truths today for today.

I have a love/hate relationship with working from home….

I love the fact that I can play a very active role in my kids day to day and know that without me working from home they would miss out on a lot of things they currently get to do. Because of the hours that I work it allows me to play an active role in their activities both in school and extracurricular. I’ve even had the privilege of coaching some of their teams and been able to go spend time in their classrooms since the school is only 10 minutes away. As a result, my lunch can be used for school visits and doctors appointments. I get to send them off to school every morning and am here when they get off the bus full of energy and loud!

I absolutely won’t give it up because it allows me to give my kids the most stability and frankly if I added a commute to an office with where the farm is located it just wouldn’t be doable.

What I don’t love is summer vacation when my kids are bored and they make sure I’m aware of it. They can’t play their video games because they suck the internet so I have locked their access out completely until after I get off work which makes them grumpy. The grumpier the kids are, the grumpier I get.

Work is busy and my drive to succeed makes me push myself, some days too hard…I forget to eat and don’t take breaks. On days like yesterday I get to 6:30pm and I have only take 2,500 steps, I haven’t showered and barely managed to get dressed!

It’s on days like that when I’m tired and the kids have been loud and hard to keep entertained and I’ve barely moved that, I’m just exhausted by the whole working from home thing. It’s only then that I miss the commute where I have time to myself to switch my brain from work mode to mom/wife mode. Without that simple 20 minutes I tend to do things like I did yesterday where I end up screaming in the driveway about how exhaust I am and how I’m mad but I’m not really mad at anyone and it’s not anyone’s fault and that I just need a minute.